it has been few months i didn't update my blog... the main purpose that i create a blog for myself is to spread my feelings when i have nobody to talk to... Today, i feel so DOWN...
today is the 3rd day.... i thought i'm okay since last night...but when i woke up until i reached college today, i cant stop my tears again...i don't know why...i accepted his reasons and respected his decision and i was trying to let it go...Families n friends are the one who give me the strength to face this... I heard alots from them...about him,about me n he and also about this relationship...Maybe it's time to end this long distance relationship...
Honestly, i don understand why the ending must be like this? its not supposed to be like this... Long distance love is our choice 10months ago..we started this relationship willingly and we knew that we cant spend most of our time together.. It can take months or years... This is the fact that i know n i think i can wait until the day we really can meet,spend time and live together one day... We are far apart just because we r still young n we have to spend more time n concentrate more on studies... i can understand our situation..Studies will make life better n secure our life..thats why i don't mind to far from him, i think he feel the same before...We tried hard together that time and we had gone through it..Finally, we meet up with each other n spent time together..i had happy moments with him..i thought we can further and we will have a better future...
But, this is only my thoughts... I'm wrong... DISTANCE n TIME become our problem...
only now i know, love means nothing when other factors appeared..Even though,love is still there between each other but still a relationship has to be ended...
he is leaving soon...i don't know if we have chance to meet again in the future.. i feel really sad to lost him... I know he won't change his decision anymore...
Just hope to let him know that i love him so much n never blamed him... I can feel his tears n sadness too... but i just don't understand why we should separate...
letting me go didn't make me live or feel better... However, thank you so much for his honesty and everything that he had gave me... i appreciated it so much...
I hope we can still be friend and keep in touch always...
TAKE CARE AND ENJOY UR COLLEGE LIFE
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