新环境新生活

终於搬新家了~很陌生可是比之前住的地方好很多很多~ 人，环境还有生活习惯。 唯一还是不变的就是还是要靠自己，饮食，家务，功课~ 到底这样的生活还要维持多久？ 每天早上六点起身准备早餐，上学，一值到下午五点才回到家。一天要提早一小时出门然后回家也是一样。很累很累。。常常想，为什么别人有家长接送而我每就这么辛苦？不是埋怨只是有时累了，想家了，受諉屈了，眼泪就不禁流下了，不管是在巴士，走路回家的路途就是不能控制~

之前，有个人总会等我回家，听我诉苦，安慰我，陪着我~可是这都是以前的事~ 现在，我不稀罕有个人会这样对我，只希望大家能以朋友的身份问候对方~我在等，我准备好当你的朋友不过你还没~所以，我不想再勉强~

很开心有新的室友相处的很好~ 只是身体从没好过~头痛，感冒，咳嗽~每天吃药还是一样！

应该是睡眠时间不足？不超过六小时一天。没办法时间不够。

很感动爸妈哥姐们的关心~虽然只是电话里的慰问可是这样就足够了~很想你们~谢谢姐买给我的一切。很羡慕看到你们已有能力买你们喜欢的东西~ 去你们要去的地方~很想有一天我也能这样~

不懂为什么明明放下了，可是在特别的日子，时候，那些画面又会从现。

希望慢慢地生活会更好~ 我在努力

only time can prove everything

it has been few months i didn't update my blog... the main purpose that i create a blog for myself is to spread my feelings when i have nobody to talk to... Today, i feel so DOWN...

today is the 3rd day.... i thought i'm okay since last night...but when i woke up until i reached college today, i cant stop my tears again...i don't know why...i accepted his reasons and respected his decision and i was trying to let it go...Families n friends are the one who give me the strength to face this... I heard alots from them...about him,about me n he and also about this relationship...Maybe it's time to end this long distance relationship...

Honestly, i don understand why the ending must be like this? its not supposed to be like this... Long distance love is our choice 10months ago..we started this relationship willingly and we knew that we cant spend most of our time together.. It can take months or years... This is the fact that i know n i think i can wait until the day we really can meet,spend time and live together one day... We are far apart just because we r still young n we have to spend more time n concentrate more on studies... i can understand our situation..Studies will make life better n secure our life..thats why i don't mind to far from him, i think he feel the same before...We tried hard together that time and we had gone through it..Finally, we meet up with each other n spent time together..i had happy moments with him..i thought we can further and we will have a better future...

But, this is only my thoughts... I'm wrong... DISTANCE n TIME become our problem...

only now i know, love means nothing when other factors appeared..Even though,love is still there between each other but still a relationship has to be ended...

he is leaving soon...i don't know if we have chance to meet again in the future.. i feel really sad to lost him... I know he won't change his decision anymore...

Just hope to let him know that i love him so much n never blamed him... I can feel his tears n sadness too... but i just don't understand why we should separate...

letting me go didn't make me live or feel better... However, thank you so much for his honesty and everything that he had gave me... i appreciated it so much...

I hope we can still be friend and keep in touch always...

TAKE CARE AND ENJOY UR COLLEGE LIFE